Starting out

I really started this blog to just get some of my feelings off my chest. There are many things happening in my life and sometimes I feel that things never change. I was married before to an idiot. I look back and can not figure out what I saw in this man. The only thing that came from that 10 year marriage is two great children. More on him later. I swore that I would never marry again. Well I was legally single for about three and a half years and then met someone on line. I did get married and had one more great child. This is where I am at now. I have lost my father tragically after a normal surgery done everyday. I lost a very good friend earlier this year to suicide which has made me very unsure of life. I have many issues going on in my head and hope that someday I can make sense of everything. I am going to college full time, work 40 hrs a week at a job, and then work a part time job about 5 hrs a week. I do not have much free time and am really losing myself in life. Well I will add more later. Goodnight.